He would kiss my forehead and move my hair from my eyes in a way that will be forever with me even though he is gone.

P (5:13:33 PM): do you think anyone does anything just out of the kidness of their heart? and for
no ulterior motives?
n (5:14:11 PM): sometimes
n (5:14:40 PM): i mean I believe it happens...its rare and therefore special; but I do believe it
happens
P (5:15:48 PM): and how can you tell if someone's being sincere?
P (5:16:01 PM): people are a tricky animal to figure out
n (5:17:00 PM): i couldn't agree more
n (5:17:17 PM): idk honestly; i have two schools of thought neither are very good
P (5:17:39 PM): well if u feel like sharing, i'd love a guy's opinion
n (5:18:30 PM): first believe everyone does something for a reason (my default setting;90%
uptime) and don't trust anyone any further than they can be thrown. This tends
to be a lonely and cynical way of living.
P (5:18:47 PM): true
n (5:19:53 PM): second people whom have shown in the past on smaller issues and over a long
period of time (months and years) that they can be trusted to follow out tasks;
that when they say things they mean them. This is my other 10% and it's hard
for a person to reach this point with me.
P (5:21:06 PM): i understand that completely b/c every time one of those 90% ppl fuck up, it
makes it that much harder to trust the 10%
n (5:22:03 PM): yep Everyday the world gets a little smaller for me. What's worse is when the
10% fuck up. Those are the days that are the hardest.
P (5:24:31 PM): i couldnt agree more....i've said something along those lines to mom about my
bro and the correlation between how he has treated me and how i expect others
to treat me
P (5:24:49 PM): its not that he's a bad guy, but he has the tendency to not follow through with
plans
n (5:26:04 PM): yeah well don't listen to me though. I have trust issues; I don't trust anyone and
when I do I trust them with everything whether they deserve that trust or not.
So I'm probably not the best to ask here LOL
P (5:27:52 PM): well, then thats why we get along...i dont even want to begin to get into the
disasterous "relation-shits" i've been in, where i've lost money, possessions and
the worst of all the trust and respect of family and friends
P (5:28:14 PM): and all for some guy who i thought was worthy
n (5:28:44 PM): that probably is why
P (5:28:54 PM): indeed
P (5:29:43 PM): appearances can be deceiving
n (5:31:58 PM): yeah i'm good at reading people sometimes I think...but then idk really
P (5:32:29 PM): you seem like you would be
n (5:34:16 PM): yeah idk
P (5:34:53 PM): take the damn compliment geez
n (5:35:36 PM): not good at that either
P (5:36:40 PM): too bad, get used to them
P (5:38:59 PM): tres chic
n (5:41:51 PM): idk what that means
P (5:42:45 PM): very fashionable. in french haha
P (5:42:58 PM): just seeing if you're paying attention
n (5:45:58 PM): i am
P (5:46:37 PM): good deal..that means you're better than most of the ppl i talk to ahaha
n (5:47:05 PM): i was better than most of the ppl you talk to before that LOL
P (5:47:26 PM): tis true, but dont tell them
n (5:47:58 PM): lol our secret
P (5:48:24 PM): thx
P (5:50:43 PM): do you like O.A.R.?
n (5:51:07 PM): i do
P (5:51:29 PM): i really like their song "shattered"
P (5:51:57 PM): i need to invest in some of their other stuff, so that i know more than just that
one song
n went away at 5:56:13 PM.
n returned at 5:56:52 PM.
n (5:57:12 PM): idk that song I'll have to download a couple more cds it sounds like
P (5:58:56 PM): yeah it's really good..the chorus kinda goes along with what we've been saying,
"How many times can i break til i'm shattered?"
n went away at 6:02:29 PM.
n returned at 6:05:20 PM.
n (6:07:44 PM): your into lyrics aren't you?
P (6:08:01 PM): very much so, how come?
n (6:08:08 PM): idk
n (6:08:13 PM): i just could tell
P (6:08:50 PM): i'm always quoting songs and movies b/c they already have he words that i
want to say or want to hear...it's so much easier when its scripted
n (6:08:58 PM): LOL
n (6:09:01 PM): so true
n (6:09:19 PM): “I don’t think my sexuality is even a question any more. The only physical
contact I have with other people is carrying drunk girls home from parties. I
think my orientation is ‘transportation equipment.”
P (6:09:35 PM): then if i dont get the reaction i wanted, i brush it off as just some movie quoteP (6:10:05 PM): haha, what's that from?
n (6:11:02 PM): My favorite website in the world (and it's for women...go figure)
http://www.collegecandy.com/haha/15697#more-15697
n (6:11:45 PM): “This year, I resolve to have way more sex. That seems like a great idea at the
time but turns out to be totally gross and stupid the next morning. Also, I
resolve to drink more.”
n (6:12:00 PM): “Am I still a vegetarian if I eat all this sausage?”
P (6:12:28 PM): hahaha, very good question and classic debate among ALL the girls i know
n (6:12:43 PM): lol wow I need to meat some of them
P (6:13:15 PM): haha
n (6:14:04 PM): did you get the double meaning there!?
n (6:14:05 PM): that was so good!
n (6:14:14 PM): I'm kinda proud of myself for thinking that up
P (6:14:15 PM): yes i did
P (6:14:21 PM): as am i
P (6:14:41 PM): “If you’re going to visit me at school, wait until February. We’re starting up the
dominatrix classes again. I think we’ll be doing a ‘make-your-own sex toy’
workshop. How cool are you with flogging? No, I’m kidding. Kind of.”
P (6:14:48 PM): i like that one the best haha
n (6:16:56 PM): that is a really good one too
n (6:17:28 PM): alright about to go eat dinner talk to you later
P (6:17:46 PM): i wonder what school that is...cant say i've seen that offered anywhere
P (6:18:01 PM): alrighty, take care and it was nice talking to you
P (6:18:13 PM): thanks for the make perspective
P (6:18:17 PM): *male
n went away at 6:24:33 PM.